you like to believe that you’re the first person to feel such things and to fall in love with someone in the way that you have, but you’re not, there have been billions of other lucky people before you who have felt and experienced the same things in the same ways, or even differently it blows my mind how we all share the same emotions but are rarely ever aware of it
Get scared. It will do you good. Smoke a bit, stare blankly at some ceilings, beat your head against some walls, refuse to see some people, paint and write. Get scared some more. Allow your little mind to do nothing but function. Stay inside, go out - I don’t care what you’ll do; but stay scared as hell. You will never be able to experience everything. So, please, do poetical justice to your soul and simply experience yourself.